Clutter!
I have clutter in my life! Its sad Hill Harper had to tell me:"We/you/I hold on to too much stuff in our psyches, our hearts, our heads, and our spirits. There is a simplicity of being that has nothing to do with all the stuff and baggage that we collect in our journey" -Hill Harper
"Free yourself of all things unnecessary and focus on simplifying your life. Clearing out your surroundings clears your mind." -Christina M. Gomes
I have clutter in my life and i know its true because I'm a serious pack rat in real life. I just don't know how to let stuff go. Things that will not benefit my future or help me get there for that matter. For some odd reason i can place sentimental value on just about anything, from old gift bags to old bottle caps. Not only is this simply ridiculous, but it is makes it harder for me to live. Harder for me to stay organized. I'm used to my clutter, but deep down inside I know its not what i want. As a matter of fact, whenever I come home my grandma makes sure that my room is clean. Of course every time I tell her she doesn't need to do this, but the truth is i really appreciate this and I NEED this. A clean room in my 804 home is letting me know that this is the time to relax, reflect and count my blessings.
Now being my psych major self obviously this pack ratness translates to my LIFE being cluttered. Its hard for me to let go of unnecessary things in my life. Why? i'm not sure, but i think it has something to do with fear. Fear that if i let go, my life will never be the same. Which is confusing to me cause I've always been an advocate for change. But i think my real problem is that I'm afraid of not having control of my life/my future. When people tell me let go and let God, I never have a response because as much as I've grown as a Christian , it is still very hard for me. I have so much baggage and clutter that its hard to move forward. Sometimes i feel like my baggage pulls at me and i can envision myself reahing out to God praying for him to pull me back. Thankfully...he pulls back. God already promised I would win the fight :)
posted by Jadey @ 7:37 PM
2 Comments:
Let me first say I know so much of where you are coming from...just because I am a neat freak, doesn't mean I am not a pack rat as well! When I clean, I just end up moving things around lol. I have boxes and boxes of things that I think I'm going to need someday.
I am also a very emotional/sentimental person, so I see value in literally everything. You'll see next year. haha. But baggage is important to let go of...somethings are holding you back! When I came home from school this year I took a box full of things that I deemed "important", took a look, and realized that it was only to remind me of the people who held me back, and chucked it into the trash.
Have never felt so powerful! Just keep praying, because God never hands us anything we can't handle.
Because believe me, keeping all that stuff from highschool was never a good look lol..it took me FOREVER to clean my room...
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