Ruby in the Making

My Spiritual Breakthrough (This made my mom cry lol)

Spring Breakthrough, which is wonderful program put on by Impact & D.u.R.A.G.(JMU), really helped me put some things into perspective:

I am a child of God and the closer i get to him, the harder the Devil works to keep us apart. He knows exactly what to do and how to put doubt in my heart. He knows my weaknesses...but so does God

Things I've learned:

-My self esteem issues are invalid because God made me in his image
-I don't feel as if im adequate enough for UVA : God wouldn't take me this far to leave me
-I always seem to worry or get hurt: The things that i worry about in my life shouldn't be getting as much attention as my love for God. He'll never disappoint.
-I freak out about my future: God already has a plan for me so I need to calm down & obey his word.
-I often feel unappreciated: God sent his son to die for my sins...enough said

I need to live my life the way God intended me to live it. I need to stop depending on others to help fulfill my life and start seeking God for that fulfillment. There are a lot of things i take for granted. I feel as if God gives me a lot of warnings and i ignore them or try to compromise my misjudgments. I make excuses, my favorite being my age. What i fail to realize is that God can take away my life at any moment. Who am i to delay my relationship with God to give in to other temptations just to "experience life". God is life and i want him to be my life from now on.

Its hard being a Christian. You have to stand out from the Christians who aren't genuine. No one is perfect, which makes it harder. But my aura and vibes are made out of God's grace and love. I believe this is why people are drawn to me. I have humility, i make mistakes too and with the help of God I am becoming better at admitting my mistakes. I know what to do,now all i have to do is do it. I'm thankful for God's patience.

I need to start taking charge of my life. If i want to achieve something i have to foster my confidence and remember that God is with me every step of the way. When one door closes God makes sure others will open... and even so when some doors open some will close. I need to surround myself with a positive environment with people who have genuine minds and hearts. I hate to let people go, but God makes it clear that not everyone will make it through the journey with me. I can't even describe in words the power of prayer and how it has changed my life.

I would like to thank everyone who has prayed for me and had my best interest at heart. I take my family and friends for granted and i pray that God gives me the good sense to hang on to the great people and opportunities present in my life. I LIVE A BLESSED LIFE :)

posted by Jadey @ 9:53 PM