Ruby in the Making

Aftermath

After I have written the facebook note on who I am as a compassionate person I felt light as a feather. I felt that now that I have confronted my weakness, nothing can stand in my way. Everything happens for a reason, but in the end God has my back as long as I stay true to myself.

What hit me the most is the people i touched with my epiphany. I've never been the type to share my feelings or rant on about how i feel, but now i know that has been a mistake. My feelings and opinions I've learned are just as important and I will never know unless i let it out. As one of my friends reminded me in the end Actions speak louder than words. Now all i have to do is back up what i say with my actions: I'm ready, but is everyone around me ready? Of course not, and this is how God likes to test me. Everyone is not going to be as mature, honest and forgiving as I was raised to be, which means i have to work harder to continue to be myself around those others.

I was talking to a friend of mine and her friend about a problem she has with someone. (I'm talking Bi-polar/obsessive issues with this person) When they found out that I've been giving this person the time of day they were really shocked and said I was a good one. I thought about it and i know this person has taken advantage of my kindness just so they can have a source that is close to my friend. This will stop immediately. I will no longer be the rag doll that will put up with anybody's mess. Time to start following my own rules. Does this mean cussing out people? Of course not, i will continue to be my smiling self because that's how you win :)

posted by Jadey @ 10:43 AM